Wake up
Tight throat
Eyes blink open
Bright light blinks into eyes
Bright eyes blinking
The light is too bright
Thinking
Where did the blinking come from
Where did the feeling come from
Feeling
Feeling overwhelmed
So suddenly after waking up
Tight throat
Wake up
Get up
Walk to the bathroom
Feel the nausea
Throat is too tight
Then throat is too sore
Dry heaving
Nothing is there
Nothing to do
Nothing to be done
Except
Go through the motions
Pretend
Everything is alright
Pretend to be alright
Blurred motions
Blurred vision
Pretending to be reality
Nothing to be done
Everything to do
Nothing is done
Get up
Go to school
Get to work
Do work
Work is not done
Nothing is done
Nothing wants to be done
Everything hurts
Everything shakes
Shaking awake
Try to stop
Can’t stop
Can’t breathe
Can’t move
Have to move
Have to walk
Walking helps
Breathing helps too
Out and in
Hold in
Not too fast
Breathe
Sip water
Splash water
Hold on
Don’t scratch
Don’t
It hurts
Keep moving
Keep moving on
Keep breathing
Keep hurting
Go through the motions
Pretend
It’s alright
Pretend to be alright
Get up
Keep walking
Get in bed
Keep moving
Can’t sleep
Move places
Hold your breath
Count to ten
Go to sleep
Sleep
Can’t sleep
Wake up
Repeat
© Bianca Greyvenstein
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5 Comments
So powerful. The form and the words really make this unusual and strong. Thanks!
Thank you so much xx it means a lot from you
Powerful! Ah… that vicious cycle. We keep going and we hope the new day will be better. At least you’re writing. 🙂 Much love to you and warmest hugs. Mwah! xxx
Thank you so much 😘 much love ❤️
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