Making a difference

Can I just say that life keeps surprising me. In so many good and bad ways. Today I mostly want to talk about the amazing ways. There is an ultimate design and my soul can feel it. Maybe my soul has known it all along, and my conscious mind is only now becoming aware.

I have been in a bit of a trance lately. For the past few weeks, the universe has attracted so many amazing and wonderful people and conversations into my life.  None of these gifts were expected and I am not usually fond of surprises. More often than not, the idea of a surprise makes me quite anxious, due to the likelihood of the outcome being something unfortunate. Suspense in reality is not something I am a fan of. I say ‘in reality’ because I much prefer the use of suspense in novels, movies or stories of any kind. I digress, as the majority of the surprises of late have been quite pleasing to say the least.

Footsteps fade and eventually merge on the most unexpected paths. I have a tendency of using large portions of my spare time to read and share posts on Facebook. These posts have always been relevant to my beliefs and things that I support. Admittedly, for about 2 years and 6 months, I was not living according to the aforementioned beliefs. I suppose this is because of certain aspects of how society and my friend circle changed as I grew up. Maybe they didn’t even change and I was just too stubborn to conform. Until I did. I would say ‘regrettably’ if I had regrets. Every version of who I was throughout my life has molded and shaped me into the present-day-me. I have to say I rather like her now.

It seems that I’m not the only one who thinks so. As I have mentioned, I have come across quite a few amazing souls as of late. One of my lecturers (she is definitely in my collection of wonderful women who have made a lasting impact on my life), recently had to leave and it was devastating and entirely heartbreaking for so many of her students. Everyone loves her to bits and she is nothing less than a superb teacher. She is one of the amazing souls and she was in fact the first one I met when I returned to Dubai at the end of August. She may not be at my university anymore, but we are still very close to her and she always looks out for us. I was dreading moving to a new university and making new friends all over again. Her class made all the difference and I didn’t think it would be entirely awful here.

The making-new-friends part doesn’t bother me as much as the moving-away-and-losing-those-friends part of life. I had this mindset for quite a while. Until I really started to think about it. I used to be perfectly content with moving on to new souls and new adventures. Something happened to make me change somehow. Toxic people made me doubt myself. I became very insecure and constantly felt the need to prove my worthiness to people who simply are not capable of valuing who I really am. That hurt me more than I like to admit.

I suppose I was in denial for quite some time and tried to be emotionless. For someone who has empath qualities, it went against my nature. I didn’t want to admit that my habits had become self-destructive. Everyone did it. So why shouldn’t I fit in for once? Something inside me knows I’m not meant to go down that path anymore and I was shaken awake but it took some time to fully snap out of it. I have been mentioning similar things in previous posts, but I suppose it is really hitting me again now with meeting so many different people. They are new kinds of people that I am not entirely used to being around but I love them dearly and they encourage me to be the best version of myself. I have changed on my own and their presence being drawn to my life, shows me that I am heading in the right direction.

The lecturer I mentioned before played a critical role in me meeting a soul that is almost indescribable. Facebook again played a role here. Both of them mentioned to me that they enjoy what I post on Facebook. This and a little bit of drama lead to a few conversations. He unexpectedly has so much in common with me. We relate on so many topics but that does not take away from some intense debates and discussions. I have never come across anyone that instantly understands me the way he does. I have pondered about past lives on occasion, and this collision took my breath away and is just so familiar that I can’t help but feel like we have known one another before in a distant world or time. I am sure I will have a lot more to say about this in future, but for now I would like to keep it to myself.

Facebook was not done with it’s surprises yet, however. An old friend ended up contacting me about my posts too. Particularly, he mentioned that a few of the topics that I feel strongly about played a role in inspiring him to want to do his part to change the world, little by little. He asked me to join him on a business venture and I am looking forward to supporting his cause and being a part of assisting non-profit organisations and nature preservation. I am not disillusioned towards all the negativity in the world. I have seen some of the worst of humanity, but people like this give me hope that all is not lost. All we have to do is our best to love one another and ourselves. Love breeds love.

Once more, another old friend made contact with me through Facebook and shared her story with me. We were never particularly close when we saw one another frequently and I have not seen her for many years but I was pleasantly surprised by her message and the conversation that followed. We have a few things in common and she has had a few struggles but she really is so much stronger for it now. I am really wishing and hoping that her path will have lights and laughter to guide her to a better story. She is remarkably optimistic and I love her all over again from one small chat.

I have had the privilege of having met a variety of people who are able to light a spark in others. Often I have only had one conversation with these people, but is is enough to leave a lasting imprint. A conversation about literature, favourite novels, learning to read and love books. Symbolism and the hidden meanings in stories. Nostalgia and tattoos. So many aspects of life that I adore that not many people appreciate. Another conversation was about languages and how to learn a new one by being fully emerged in it. Diving in head first into a new world and learning everything anew.

Making a difference in the world and in people’s lives could be as simple as giving a compliment or giving the taxi driver an extra ten Dirhams. A small thing to one, could make all the difference to another. A conversation and a connection.

These are not the only people I have come across that speak to my soul. Over the years these moments sparkle and explode, however they are fleeting and should be appreciated.

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