Changes in Appearance
As some of you may have noticed, my blog has undergone a bit of a make-over. I am over the moon that I decided to change things up a bit. It’s more me now. Before, I was attempting to emulate blogs that I have seen and taking advice from people as to how my blog should look. I liked it it a lot for a while and I was happy with it staying as it was. Until I stared at it for a while and realised I didn’t really love it as much as I should. It wasn’t authentically me. There’s a lot more pink, but as anyone who knows me will tell you, I have an underlying obsession with pink.
Throughout some of the chaos that we call life, I have also managed to decorate my desk and do some cleaning (okay it only stayed that way for about 5 seconds but I’m working on it) which is something that gave me a lovely sense of peace with myself. My room has also transformed from being a mismatched mess to a slightly more put together mess.
There have been times when I have looked towards people who I admire and attempted to incorporate a certain aspect of theirs into my own life. This is particularly easier in recent years with the vast reach of the internet which allows us to locate more people online that appeal to us. We look up to those people who are seemingly living the lives that we desire, or covet above our own.
Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery that mediocrity can pay to greatness – Oscar Wilde
It is so easy to get caught up in society. Becoming one with the crowd to blend in with the masses. To fit in. Losing parts of ourselves along the way.
Remember who you are… – Mufasa from The Lion King
I am a Pisces, the last of the zodiac, and it is said that we have the ability to become shape-shifters when confronted with certain situations. We are chameleons in conversation. Adapting to our surroundings. We say what people want to hear, whether to avoid feelings being hurt or to avoid conflicts arising. Telling white lies to side-step pain.
Okay let’s try this again. The first draft of this post turned out horrendously so I simply decided to delete it all and start again.
Sometimes that is what we all need to do. Have a fresh start. Wipe away all the negativity, step back and take a look, then dive back in with a new mindset.
I can’t even begin to express how amazing it feels to do. Especially when it appears you are going down a negative spiral of no return. When you’re in deep enough, it seems like there’s no going back. Except there always is.
I suppose everyone goes through different phases in life and it depends a lot on what’s going on around them.
Recently I have let my surrounding and the goings on get a grip on me. A suffocating grip. One that I want to be free of. Desperately.
21 Things I learned Before 21
Last month I turned 21 and here are a few things that were on my mind before this milestone:
As of late, I have fallen in love with writing again. Here I don’t mean typing or even just writing a story, but I actually mean writing. Simply taking a pen to paper and letting your thoughts flow in whichever direction they choose to go.
This evening my parents and I watched the movie Nerve. It has one of my all time favourite actresses as the main lead (Emma Roberts), so naturally it was on my list of To Be Watched.
I don’t want to spoil anything but the movie had a few concepts in there that I want to discuss.
Willows and Wanderings
Life without wi-fi is proving to be a bit difficult (especially when it comes to updating my blog regularly), however I have had plenty of time to reread some old books and a start on a few new ones. I’ve also had my fair share of adventures and outings. Overall, the Christmas holidays turned out better than I expected.
Blossoms and Besties
This is what happens when two friends attempt to find a distraction in the mundane…
Photo creds: Mekayla Barkhuizen